New Years Resolutions - 2012

- Be happy : easier said than done, but everyday I want to write down one good thing that happened to me that day
- Retainer : try and wear it every night.. I've been slacking
- Temple Trips : baptisms for the dead at least twice a month
- Volunteering : sign up at the library, or hospital, or food and care coalition and keep with it. Serving others brings happiness.
- Spend more time and do small acts of service for my family : go visit Ryan and courtney, help mom with dinner, visit my grandma, hang out with colby, help dad in the yard, etc.

2011 - A Year of Memories

random memories from 2011

both the good and bad

a year of memories

start of senior year . girls camp . dances . australia . ryan's wedding . hour spent sitting at the piano . youth conference . rejoining adc . the res . saying goodbye to my 4.0 . sleepover with the dance girls at michelles . studio 600 dances . sunburns . january 16th . braces off . twitter . playing hymns for church in ireland . lonely christmas . ap chem study groups . last minute last chance . sonic tuesdays . utah football games . sewing classes . losing friends . saving money . ladybugs in math class . car getting towed . summer nights . spanish video . sleepovers outside at michelles . snorkeling the great barrier reef . gender wars . working as a sweeper . jet lag . bonfires . tweeting in seminary with the homies . power poses . not going to prom . act prep classes with bai . ipod being stolen . no gps in ireland . turning 18 . sluffing class . long talks . little caesar runs at work . personal progress finished . shs football games . pay raise . slurpee runs . accepted to the u of u . sleeping in . bieber fever . ap tests . words with friends . late nights . feeding dolphins . senioritis . heehaws party with adc . ireland . junior research project . little scratch on my car . early morning walks on the beach . finishing junior year . september 25th . tangled . cod parties in colby's room . res with the neighbors . early morning jogs . ap history study guides . christmas lights . party at madi's . milk and psych study party after dance with chell . looking for shooting stars.

: a year i wont forget :

I'll Be Home For Christmas

I might be home for Christmas...
but where is my family?

Presents, treats, fancy dinners, decorations, santa, music, celebrations...
but what is it all without family?

Currently right now I am sitting in the family room chair.
All alone.
In our big empty house.
No one but me is home.

I miss my family.

My parents are only gone for a couple of hours visiting people...but even though I probably wouldn't hang out with them much if they were home, I still wish they were here.  Just someone to be around.

Colby is with Janelle celebrating with her family.  And I am happy for them.  They are super cute together and I'm glad she joined us this morning for Christmas...but I just wish they were here, even if it was just to sit by the tree and play a board game.

and finally Ryan.
He got married to Courtney a couple days ago and I couldn't be happier for them.  Today they are up at her famiy's house in Logan.  I knew I would miss Ryan but I just didn't realize it would hit me so quickly or so hard.

Family is what Christmas is all about.
And it's not like I haven't been around the family at all this season.  We spent yesterday with the cousins and today at my Grandma's....but it is just not the same.
and I'm not ready for change.

I want us all to be little again.
I want to wake up early Christmas morning and go jump on my brothers beds to wake them up.
I want us to cut pictures of toys out of magazines and tape them onto papers for our lists again.
I want to spend all of Christmas day putting our toys together and setting them up.
I want to be home with my family on Christmas.

happiness

first off...wow i haven't blogged in over a month.
sad day.
i've gotten on a couple times and started to write things,
but everytime i feel like i have something to say i dont know how to say it.

but tonight im just here to say im happy.
and for no real reason.
okay....maybe there are a few specific reasons.
but really in general nothing big happened today.
just a regular tuesday.
school, work, and dance.

i say this all the time, but really i want to try and be more positive.
i'm always so negative.
and lets be honest here...im kinda bipolar...but what girl isnt?

but seriously I have nothing to be negative about.
and whenever bad things happen..
its okay.
because life goes on.
i just gotta remember that.

last week for example
my ipod got stolen
yes i am still pretty upset about it
and yeah im probably going through withdrawals
and i really miss it
haha
but whatever
its fine
now i have something to ask for for christmas, right?
and it will be brand new and wont have any scratches on it!

okay maybe this is all over the top
and tomorrow night i'll probably be feeling the exact opposite
but for now im gonna try and be positive
because life is so much more enjoyable when you are happy