I'll Be Home For Christmas

I might be home for Christmas...
but where is my family?

Presents, treats, fancy dinners, decorations, santa, music, celebrations...
but what is it all without family?

Currently right now I am sitting in the family room chair.
All alone.
In our big empty house.
No one but me is home.

I miss my family.

My parents are only gone for a couple of hours visiting people...but even though I probably wouldn't hang out with them much if they were home, I still wish they were here.  Just someone to be around.

Colby is with Janelle celebrating with her family.  And I am happy for them.  They are super cute together and I'm glad she joined us this morning for Christmas...but I just wish they were here, even if it was just to sit by the tree and play a board game.

and finally Ryan.
He got married to Courtney a couple days ago and I couldn't be happier for them.  Today they are up at her famiy's house in Logan.  I knew I would miss Ryan but I just didn't realize it would hit me so quickly or so hard.

Family is what Christmas is all about.
And it's not like I haven't been around the family at all this season.  We spent yesterday with the cousins and today at my Grandma's....but it is just not the same.
and I'm not ready for change.

I want us all to be little again.
I want to wake up early Christmas morning and go jump on my brothers beds to wake them up.
I want us to cut pictures of toys out of magazines and tape them onto papers for our lists again.
I want to spend all of Christmas day putting our toys together and setting them up.
I want to be home with my family on Christmas.