Someone Real

I'm not a very open person.
And I'm aware of this.
Especially not as open as I used to be when I was younger.
Over the past couple of years I've kept more to myself.
Sometimes it comes off as shy, which I guess is true.
And I'm fine not being the most outgoing person in the world,
I don't care to have all of the attention on me anyways.

But these days
I really just want someone who will take the chance
to actually get to know me.
Someone who actually wants to get to know me.
I want someone who will let me take my own time to open up,
when I'm ready.
I want someone who will just sit and talk with me
about everything and anything,
no boundaries, and complete trust.
I don't want anyone who just wants to use me.
I want someone who wants real friendship.
Someone to go get snowcones and sit on my front lawn with and watch the cars drive by.
Or someone to drive around at night with just listening to the radio.
Even someone to shoot hoops with in my backyard late at night...and I don't even like basketball that much.
Someone who will just make me laugh.
A person that can tell when I'm faking my smile,
and make it a real smile.
Someone I can be completely honest with,
and not have to hold anything back.
I want someone who is real,
and someone I can be real with too.


*yes i know this is such a typical girl blog, sorry, but its whats on my mind*

The Last Eight Count

The Last Eight Count

by Sarah McKinnis

My heart grew heavy as I stepped onto the floor

I took my position and prepared to soar

My dancing sisters to my right and my left

Girls that within 10 lifetimes I could never forget

Those who had been with me through times that were bad

With whom I shared the best times I've ever had

I kicked my highest and I spun my hardest

I smiled my widest and I leapt my farthest

All so that I could walk away and know

I wanted to dance my best and I had done so

With all of my heart and my soul

With gracefulness, style, and control

I danced my last eight count with the team by my side

I walked off the floor smiling, but inside cried

How do you lose something that you love to do?

Without it how can you still feel you're you?

That night as I laid down my head

I prayed a prayer to God as I stirred restlessly in bed

"God, please whatever you do,

don't let the worst fear of mine ever come true

I'll be whatever you want me to be

Just don't let that be the last eight count for me"

Then God looked down at me and smiled

"Why should it ever be, my child?

As long as there is muisc and love

As long as there are stars above

The gift that I gave you will be there

You can dance anytime, anywhere."

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My new favorite poem.
These are my exact feelings after our shows this weekend.
Thank you ADC
You have done all of this for me.

5 reasons I am not attending the singles ward

first i just have to say ive definitely been slacking on posting. hopefully now that i got this new laptop and its summer i can post more :)

but today is sunday
which means church
and lately all the talk is how everyone is now going to the singles ward
and for a little bit i was thinking dang i kinda want to go...
but
here are the 5 reasons why i am not attending the singles ward:

1. I just recently got the calling to teach primary. and i love it. and i wouldn't want to quit right after i got the calling. and i think im learning more from having that calling than anything.

2.  Singles ward meets at 1pm. which is the worst.  yeah 9am church sucks too but at least i have the rest of the day to do whatever.

3. Really lets be honest, i dont really want to see all of those people from school.  yeah there are some people i miss and it would be fun to go to church with...but its not worth being around all the drama.

4. Doesn't the singles ward meet in like provo? ya i think they do...and if so i don't want to waste gas money when i can just go to church two blocks away. plus im late to church a lot as it is....i cant imagine if it was farther away.

5. This is the real reason. I don't want to have to actually get ready and look cute for church...that just takes too much time and effort.  I'd rather just barely get ready and go to my normal ward where I don't have to worry about impressing anyone.

so there you have it.
i'll be staying in my home ward
for another three months
until college
than i'll start the whole singles ward thing.